
This is what I have been doing when I go to the vending
machine. Why? Because I’m fat! If a skinny girl goes to the vending machine
nobody thinks of it. Or they think, “well bitch needs more then a trail mix
snack! She needs every item in there!” A fat person goes to the vending machine
and it’s like, “Really? You need to cut back bitch!” It’s really nerve racking.
You get all these stares, hear murmurs and quiet giggles as you select the
Snicker bar from the machine. It’s the most dreadful thing.

To be fat is bad enough. Fat person going to the vending
machine? Good god! That’s asking for trouble! This is why I avoid the vending
machine as much as possible. But there are times when I feel hungry and I just
want to have a snack. Usually I would pack up my apple, grapes, oranges, or
bananas, but sometimes I forget. Sometimes, I ran out of food or I’m too poor
to go grocery shopping and I have to look for change under the couch cushions
so I can get a snack from the vending machine. Shit happens.
The fact I have to do some 007 stunt is ridiculous! There
are a few times I go in the cafeteria when they are people there. It’s just
uncomfortable, because you know eyes are on you now. Just gazing upon you and
passing judgment left and right. Making you feel bad about yourself and feel
guilty to go to the vending machine. As if the vending machine was a nightclub
and the bouncer won’t let you in, but would let the skinny girls enter in a
heart beat. It’s the eyes of shame. It’s one of the worse feelings that a big
person can ever feel.
At my job there’s a security guard that is also my best
friend. She is a plus size as well. She as well, hate going to the vending
machine when the cafeteria is flooded. Sometimes I make her go get snack for me
so I don’t look like a fat ass. Or we would both go to the vending machine, but
the snacks she gets are my snacks. I do the same for her. We big girls got to
stick together, right? Knowing I’m not alone in this brings me in great ease.
Anyway, the trip to the vending machine is the ultimate dread
for a fat girl. Can anybody relate?
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